The Voice of Self-Doubt

The voice of self-doubt, usually it's like it swings, there's like this inner gut feeling of go or yield or pause or I don't know. Physical tension in the body is hand in hand with self-doubt. It's hard to be relaxed and full of doubt. So in those moments of self-doubt, when it's like an emergency, a couple of things, the go-to is to, one is to just pause and stop what I'm doing. And that's more difficult to really try and express, but the other one is to really look to a dear friend or look to someone I trust for that sort of mere feedback of like, am I crazy?

And on that note, it reminds me of actually probably one of my main allies and friends for self-soothing is the wild, like going into nature or going into the ocean or going into the mountains. It's just like, it helps to put everything into perspective. It's like a doorway or a threshold into this expansive, fast, open space that allows me to completely relax into it, into something larger than my contracted, small, shrinking self. And sometimes I feel like I am when my mind is like, when I'm stuck in a place of self-doubt.